[ Heβ he didn't expect her to text, he should have texted, he should have found her. It's just. He doesn't emotions. He does emotions, okay. He emotions a lot but has no fucking idea how to handle them unless they're certain emotions. Mostly anger. Everything else he processes by acting like a fool or fucking disappearing. Obviously he did the latter this time.
And. Well, and her. She called him uncle. Which drove home a thousand times what he first felt. The immediate thing that just fucked him right up and the thing he avoids talking about, vehemently, with anyone who pries and manages to get anything from him. Out of fucking nowhere, stunned over her lifelessness, all he could think of was how she could have been his child. He'd never seen someone so young die right before him. He's seen death, he's been the one that's dealt it but they were all similar age ranges. Jinx, Jinx was young. Twenty some odd years younger than him kind of young.
He'd thought about it but he never brought it up. Never. Not once. He never told Zane he'd thought about it. Cause he didn't... cause he didn't fucking love Zane. Not the way he loved Marcus. But here he fucking was, wasn't he? Here he fucking was. ]
gays, amiright π run out?
[ Pretend nothing fucking happened. Just keep swimmin'. ]
its ok. u can be drunk. im drunk too. drunkies family. idk um. maybe 48mins ok w/ me, makes sense. i have long hair. her hair is short and stuff. shouldnt take too long.
ok...ill stick around. its hard tho. being here doesnt feel right but maybe that will go away? im glad ure ok. or u and the other person made it out ok? im guessing u two did right?
yea i think? idk how to be okay rn? just drinking. i know how to do that. and being in bed? i know how to lie here. so im doing those two things a lot.
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And. Well, and her. She called him uncle. Which drove home a thousand times what he first felt. The immediate thing that just fucked him right up and the thing he avoids talking about, vehemently, with anyone who pries and manages to get anything from him. Out of fucking nowhere, stunned over her lifelessness, all he could think of was how she could have been his child. He'd never seen someone so young die right before him. He's seen death, he's been the one that's dealt it but they were all similar age ranges. Jinx, Jinx was young. Twenty some odd years younger than him kind of young.
He'd thought about it but he never brought it up. Never. Not once. He never told Zane he'd thought about it. Cause he didn't... cause he didn't fucking love Zane. Not the way he loved Marcus. But here he fucking was, wasn't he? Here he fucking was. ]
gays, amiright π run out?
[ Pretend nothing fucking happened. Just keep swimmin'. ]
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how long she been in there???
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idk um. maybe 48mins
ok w/ me, makes sense. i have long hair.
her hair is short and stuff. shouldnt take too long.
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maybe her other hair is longer idk hahaaaaaaaahaha
wtfff. did she fall asleep?? ive done that before NO JOKE. woke up looking like a fucking raisin.
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so like rlyyy tho. u gonna check on her now im curious lol
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plus u made me laugh and i havent laughed since.
i came back
so.
thnx.
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until ur fun for the evening decides her hair is clean enouggh lmao
stick around tho.
pls.
i like when ur here.
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im glad ure ok. or u and the other person made it out ok? im guessing u two did right?
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Yeah we made it. I'm okay yanno... Okay.
Let's take shit on together next time, maybe. Yeah? You and me..Vi, Sharon. We got this.
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idk maybe.
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I wonder if ur feeling that weird shit that happens when you first wash ashore??
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will it be ok if i see u tmrrw?
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yea. txt me soon as u wanna meed up. u ok tonight tho? she's cool? outside of showering for a 35327854794 years LOL
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i just hope she doesnt break me but thats what my job is for!
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i just need to step up my game.
like idk. make sum limited time offer stuff.
get this now or im not making anymore!!
( living the sugar mama life and feed them sugar babies. )
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but i believe in ur hustle
[ a moment or two. ]
but seriously, have ur fun.
keep me on speed dial. if u need me, call. im a light sleeper.
[ when he sleeps. which isn't that often. ]
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boop boop beep beep
ok u are now on speed dial.
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